Dear Allah,

idk if i can follow you.. ever since i was a kid i used to pray to you to make me feel better, to heal me, to "fix" me but there was never something wrong with me. im gay and i'd rather go to hell for it than live for my family and you and pretend like im fine, i've alr been there and it took me many tries of dying to realize i was never the problem. it's you, you and your brainwashed minions. i refuse to love a god who will throw me in hell for loving a woman. i still love you because i wanna believe, i wanna believe jannah is real and my sisters are doing fine with you and all these innocent people you are watching dying & doing nothing about it. you are incompetent and i hate you for it. you watched them die, you didnt do a single shit, "god is suffering with you" FUCK YOU.

you took all my energy and happiness, my friend, my big sisters and you hate me for being gay, and yet im supposed to kneel down and pray to you? i used to wake up so early being 10, begging you to take me, begging you to keep my sisters well, begging you to make me straight because i needed jannah to see my sisters. i wanna believe, and somehow i do believe in you but i dont believe in your book, the said "Allah's words" im so conflicted.. whether you be real or not, i don't want to follow a god who throws people in hell for loving or for killing themselves when he, himself is the one who gave them nothing but pain.

so fuck you and i'd rather burn in hell than kneel down for something as evil as you.