Dear Ryan,

Thursday, May 21st, 2026 was the first time it ever felt awkward with you. Of course, with you being my dad and all, Ive had awkward moments, times where one of us said something we regret and those few seconds of silence followed, but never like this. I could tell you were off, but you wouldn't elaborate. From the moment you picked me up to the moment you dropped me off, much sooner than normal, there was a tension I didn't understand. I wish we could be open with each other. I wish I saw you without the want to hide away. I wish I could talk with you the way I talk about mom. I wish I liked you the way I Love you. Thats knew too, I never thought I could Love someone but not Like them. I don't know How to explain it. I hope you get better.