Dear Ava,

to ava,

I miss you. I miss you so much it eats me out when I'm alone, when I'm with friends, even when I close my eyes. you were my best friend. and it was my fault for falling in love with you.

I miss how we were, our talks, our friendly touches and gentle smiles. now all I see is emptiness. I still look at you now, not with the same smile I used to, but a longing stare. hoping one day you'd look back at me, and forgive me for my feelings.

I miss the spark, the way I was so excited to see you, how my eyes always landed on you in a room. they still do, I just never had told anyone.

I'm sorry I had ever fallen in love with you and if I could go back I promise you, I would.

I don't think ive ever gotten over our friendship. ive talked with you so much it just feels so unnatural to talk to anyone else. I still haven't told you some things. but to be fair, I don't think I'll ever tell anyone.

you still look just the same, the same girl who i was with in my childhood, the same girl I used to have sleepovers with, and the same girl I used to imagine would be my maid of honor.

I miss you.

with much love ,
A