Dear ilyas yudha pradhana,

what can i do, what can i say
everything is over now...
yet i'm still the same person who fell for you at the beginning.
late night, i find myself crying over you
i reread our texts and think about the future we once planned together
every song seems to remind me of you, somehow...everything is about you
i didn't realize my feelings were this deep until now, but there's nothing i can do anymore
you were my first in everything..
the first person who truly gave me the feeling of being loved
the first person who always listened to me, cared, and stayed beside me.
i know i hurt you so badly, i was still immature back then, just child who didn't fully understand things yet....but one thing i never lied about was my love for you, i loved you purely, sincerely, and without any hesitation.
a longgg time ago, i used to dream about us..about the future we could build together..
i wanted us to grow better and better, to become succesful together fi dunya wal akhirat. but now i'm afraid
i don't think i'm worthy of saying those things anymore and i don't want to hurt you anymore..