Dear Nobody™,

I have a very unhealthy relationship with sex. I'm an addict, and I'm a manipulator. Today is my birthday, I sent a text in the group chat: "everybody send me $500," it was a joke. Everyone knows so. It was also the first seed I planted, so when I messaged this girl outside of the group chat I could reference the joke. I said all I wanted was cash or ass. She said "I don't have any money, so happy birthday" and sent me a picture. Now, this alone, you could call playful. Consensual, flirty. But I want to destroy her. I want to claim her. I want to own her. I do this to everyone I have sexual relations with. In my mind I do, anyways. I've had girls tell me that I'm blowing it out of proportion, that I'm just hypersexual that I don't do anything wrong. And, they're right mostly. But they can't hear what's in my head. They don't know what I want. I'm a monster. I feel like one anyways.