Dear cheska,

i miss you. like, a lot. i miss our old conversations, our daily calls, and honestly... the old you too. i don't even understand why i called you "manhid." i was wrong for that, and i'm sorry. i think i just got too overwhelmed with everything i was feeling.

i know i probably sound stupid crying over another human being, haha. but i really got attached to you. you became part of my routine without me even realizing it. every random thing reminds me of you now.

we went swimming earlier, and i saw someone who looked like you. i swear, my chest suddenly felt heavy after that. maybe it was stress, maybe sadness, maybe frustration. i don't even know anymore. all my emotions got mixed up at once.

and honestly? i still keep hoping you'd randomly message me someday. kahit simpleng "hi" lang. because i miss talking to you more than i want to admit.

i keep wondering... hanggang notes nalang ba talaga 'to? hanggang "writing paragraphs about her" nalang ba? hanggang memories nalang ba yung calls natin?

i know things changed between us, and maybe i can't force them back to the way they used to be. but i just wanted you to know that what we had really meant something to me. you meant something to me.