Dear Raze,

Where was this version of you when i needed it the most?

We were best friends for 4 years almost 5 now or atleast thats what i thought turns out im just a backup to you

When i started having mental problems because of my family and past truma's whenever i chat you because im having breakdowns or i in a emotional crisis you would always brush me off ignore me or make up some bullshit excuse i couldn't tell anyone i thought you were the person i could tell anything about and now im all messed up because i didnt get the attention and help i needed before i turned emotioonally sensitive, self harming, suicidal, and overall just messed up and now your being all caring and responsive instantly replying always having time for me where was this version of you when i needed it the most? why only now that i got so fucked up, i thought we were gonna be by eachother's side always there for eachother but how could you be that careless before? how could you do this to me.