Dear DEAR UNKNOWN,

LISTENING TO (JE TE LAISSERAI DE MOTS)

I feel strange in this world. It feels like the one who doesn't belong is my own mind. I want to break free but from what? Maybe from myself or maybe from the world.

I want to run far away, so far that no one can see me anywhere. No humans, no noise just me with myself. An empty place surrounded by mountains, trees, the moon and a small house. Far away from the world, living in peace.

I want to run as far as I can. I want to breathe as much as I can. All I know is that I am tired tired and scared of fighting. I don't want to fight anymore; it scares my heart.

All that hard work feels like trash to me now. Was I wrong? I was so tired of everything. I worked as hard as I could, but in the end, what was the outcome? Nothing but pain, pain that made me scared of my own self.

I am scared and tired now. They hurt me badly, and even though I know I will fight again whenever I get the chance, I also know the world will break me into pieces again.

Honestly, this time I don't know why, but my heart isn't catching the courage anymore.

I'm tired.