Dear Tristan,

Okay.... I do have a crush on you.

I hate to call it that, because I'm kind of in a... predicament, with another friend of mine. Someone you know. We aren't dating, and I've made that clear, but I would much prefer it to be you.

I really like you Tristan.
I've written too many of these letters, 8 now I think including this one.
My biggest fear is you getting too curious, choosing to search us anonymous letter sites, and finding this one. I hope you never find this.

I've gotten into Tarot cards recently, Barret has done a couple for me, but I just got my own deck today and did a couple basic readings, not too deep.

The results were interesting to say the least, but not surprising. I cannot recall the exact spread, but it was a 3 spread; body, heart, and mind, regarding your stance on the relationship we've built so far as friends and how you feel about me. The conclusion to that reading was that you are content with your position in life and do not wish to get romantic with anyone, but also that I am not entirely off the table as an option. Not so much the negative connotation of being "an option" but that I am in your line of sight at least.

3 of cups can symbolize prosperity and satisfaction in more of a group setting, success in numbers. What I interpreted from that was a positive outcome regarding our friend group; that we go good in a group, we get along, and we have chemistry; though, not romantic at the moment.

I hope that that outcome can change, but then again, I don't want to accidentally alter a result if it's not in the outside party's best interest.

I'll never truly know how you feel, nor will I ever ask (unless I'm obscenely high and nobody would blame me for being overly honest in that state)

White boy, you confuse me. But I still like you.
A lot.