Dear the guy I've never confessed my feelings to,,

I miss you a lot and I hope you'll be back asap.

I think about you so much during my daily life, I don't think it's healthy... There are so many reasons to love you : you're kind, you're funny, easy-going, confident, social, smart and very handsome. You're a person I look up to a lot. Indeed, I aspire to have as much trust in myself as you do.

I miss those times we were in the same class. I gathered all my courage to talk to you and be your friend. I don't think you get how nervous I was to even look your way... Yet, I kept my cool and acted as if my birthday wishes weren't about you for the past few years.

Eventually, things worked. We became good friends, you followed my pace, my humour and aknowledged me a lot during classes. Needless to say, I was extremely happy!

However, my dumbself started denying her own feelings. I thought the things that I felt was purely friendship. I told my friends (and myself) that I had a crush on this other guy.

Then came the day our friendship started fading. I was mad, you sat next to me, I ignored you, acted like I was looking for my fake "crush". I'm sorry. I thought everything would go back to normal the upcoming week but things didn't go as planned. You weren't aknowledging me anymore, your tone was less soft and your gaze became sharper...

I'm sorry for giving you the cold shoulder instead of confessing to you that I was upset over the earlier situation. I've always struggled with telling my feelings to others, I always end up crying once I try to. It's like the words are stuck in my throat.

When I think of all these tiny moments I've had with you, I'm happy. Please send me a message or show me that you care. I wish that you could open your heart to me. I have so many things I want to tell you so please come back to me.

I love you so much, my biggest love. I'll try to move on but I can't garantuee that I'll be able to