Dear Aidan,

I love you so much Aidan, nothing else to me matters more than the soft and caring words you give me.
You'll forever be my precious boy and my whole entire world. Our time together is valuable to me-and I don't wish to take that away again.
I know we had bad conflicts in the past, but the one year I spent with you felt like my heart found it's place again.
I wish you could take me back again, I really wish to feel loved by someone that I love so much. But I know that could never happen again after everything that happened.
I wish I could talk to you sober again, I don't want you thinking I'm saying things just because I'm not in the correct mindset. But please baby I do promise that I really do want and miss you so much.
Aidan please