Dear My psychopathic family,

I hate my family, i hate them all except my little brother, my baby boy.

I hate to engage with them , to talk to them, i hate to think of a future that will include them in it , ████████████████████████████████████████

I hate how they always burdened me at a very young age to be the "man of the house" to be expected to take care of my siblings in the future financially even though i'm the middle child and a girl!!! Just because my siblings are "stupid" "they don't know better"
Now even they are expecting it as well! They became too comfortable with asking me for money even though I'm younger than them..

My dad relays too much on me , his expectations are tiring, expecting me to do the work for my older brothers because "they're stupid" and i'm "mature and smart"
It's really tiring! They keep putting pressure on me from a very young age!

And the ony reason i'm "mature and smart" was because even as kid i knew if i didn't do well in school I'll be married off before i even get to graduate!

Honestly I think of either killing myself or faking my own death in the future so they can leave me alone.. i want to live freely

I'm just so tired