Dear Chammi❤️,

Yesterday all of a sudden, everything hit me so hard. I walked around aimlessly, going everywhere I could, even when I knew it was all just to keep myself from crying. It was my way of distracting myself.

[Was it because I wanted to prove to myself that I was strong enough to hold myself together when no one else does? Or should I be honest enough to tell you the truth?
!! I was scared that I would break down because I'm so weak, and somewhere deep inside I knew I would end up crying alone, with no one to hold me or even console me!!]

I was okay all these days... or maybe I was just acting tough. But yesterday I couldn't hold it in any longer. All I I want was to cry and cry and cry until I get tired of it and fall asleep.
And The thing that saddened me even more was the clothes I was wearing!!!
It was the same dress I was wearing the last time I cried because of you. And yesterday I was wearing the same dress again, and I felt down all over again.
The only difference is that last time, when I was sad, at least I could hear your voice.
But yesterday... I was all alone, not knowing how to hold myself together anymore.