Dear Anvi,

hey, its me.
you cut off connection with me at the time you had jaundice and was unwell. i couldnt get to know if youre alright, but i wish to god that youre healthy. i guess in another life, we are together, maybe. I hope youre happy where ever you are and i wish you achieve your goal and i had hoped to see you in uniform, though that wont happen now. not in this lifetime. i myself am not in a good place right now, lots of things happening and i feel alone, stressed out. You were the one thing i looked forward to everyday. losing that had me lose a sense of focus for a long time. but its better now. most of the days i dont remember you or think about you. but sometimes it just hits me, the thought of you. Sometimes, i see you in a stranger's face because i dont know how else to imagine you. All we got from each other was our names and the time we shared together. i dont miss you, its just that sometimes, i wish i could talk to you, hear your voice, or even just feel your presence. I know this message will never reach you and thats for the better. i dont want you to remember me. i want you to live your life to the fullest and never look back. And even if by mistake you do remember me, i want you to remember me as just a memory, one that would not linger around. Sometimes i imagine that you would be at my doorstep in your uniform and surprise me, but it would be best that you dont, you should not give me, a stranger so much importance in your life. I hope you find someone that deserves you and will love you even through all the hardships that us humans face in our life. Have kids, you once told me that you will name your child after me. Well be aware that if you do that he might grow up to be a very troublesome kid. This letter also serves as a goodbye that we couldnt get for ourselves. We didnt have the luxury to say goodbye properly, you were in such a hurry. and i waited. i waited there in our place, checked it daily multiple times hoping you will be present there. You never came. There is a part of me that you have anvi. Take care of that part and treat it well. I hope if you ever do remember me, you remember me in a time of distress and the thought of me can give you strength, in any way possible. even though this is an anonymous letter that will never reach anyone, i still dont wanna say goodbye, not yet. not so early. But its time now. Take care of yourself and keep growing.
Goodbye, Anvi.
I will always adore you.