Dear Anybody,

The fact that he chose her isn't what hurts, it's that She knew I loved Jakob, she knew that he was perfect in my eyes. And knowing that she got with him- And is playing the "perfect girlfriend" role perfectly while not loving him fully. she's playing him. I've said it a million times she's playing him but no one wants to acknowledge how bad that is. not even he himself. That's what hurts. The fact that if I was given the chance I'd make him feel loved, appreciated, cared for. And people always tell me "just let him go", "focus on yourself", but it's hard okay because me and him we weren't anything official it was just hope. And somehow that pain is ten times worse that actually being something official.