Dear A friend i never may not have,

Well, i have friends but not someone whom i can call and cry. or share my mind with. i wish i had someone who supported me as friends. today im feeling so hollow. that here i am, just typing a letter for a friend who never existed

hey! how are ya doing? its so hot today Right? are u drinking water . my semester finals are starting from this saturday and im feeling so anxious. im afraid for some reason. and i dont know why. today i got call for a tution trial class. i thought , finally , im gonna get a job which will pay me a bit. unfortunately the guardian has already choosen another teacher. it made me so sad. i cant find a work to earn and im already at the end of my 2nd year.what am i gonna do in life.. Job market is at stake. its hard . Ash messaged me today. and u may slap me but yeah i was giggling like a fool once again. he talked about his gf and all. i just dont undertstand why are they not getting married yet. and why does he ask for my validations.. i wanna block him fr. but for the old sake of our friendship, i just cant. he was again talking about how bad he looks. as if that idiot knew , how handsome i find him..haha. i need to overcome from him . i want him to stop texting me fr. i have , i think, i bit. while i realised that im not the woman he will ever consider, now new insecuries are working in me. what am i lacking again? I dont have looks , i know that. thus i reallt need a job . to earn some money. When i got call for tution offer, i was so happy and already went though the student syllabus and all..downloaded his books..made mind map . i think that drained me a lot today.Better luck next month i guess. the student house was far from my home anyway. i should study for finals. wish me luck . i hope i can concentrate . i need too. i can do well in exam ....right???