Dear My always,

I never told you how I really felt about you. I knew you would never understand with you growing up in a country it was banished. You spoke of it often enough for me to know I could never tell you how I really felt. I craved you so much. Every forbidden touch lingered in my skin. So soft and delicate. Those small moments, meaningless to you or so it seemed? Was that you too? Or was it just in my mind? Your smell wrapped around my whole body. Every time we locked eyes and I couldn't pull away. So beautiful and brown. Could you feel the chemistry? Could you feel the pull? Did your heart skip beats like mine? Surely it couldn't have been one sided? What were you doing to me? I'm not that way inclined. I'm married. But you, omg I would do anything for you. I would be that way for you. Only you. Your voice so calming to my ears it made me tired. You made me weak. You brought down all my walls. I hated when you spoke about other people you were talking to. I couldn't handle it. The thought of someone taking you from me killed me. Knowing they could have you and I couldn't made my heart ache so much. You are so beautiful, perfect, flawless. But I could never have you because it's forbidden. But I would give everything for you. You must of known. You can't of done everything you did to me and say all you did to me and have no feelings. No second thoughts about it. Everyone could see it they tell me. I tell them they got it all wrong we are just friends. Well not anymore. Not since you left me with no explanation. With a pain I can never heal. Tears that could fill an ocean. A heart forever shattered. A promise forever broken. A hope that never comes.