Dear Nobody™,

I don't wanna be an second option anymore. It's always the same. No one sees or knows the real me, everyone ignores my existence and i get treated like I'm a burden. When is it my turn to show my true self to everyone without getting mischaracterized? Everything feels so heavy lately. The ache that I'm carrying with me everyday is getting too overwhelming. I don't want to feel like this anymore - like an second option. I'm just a floater friend. There if anyone needs me or if I need to fill a space. Never the first option, never seen. Everyone just uses me but do they even know me? No, they don't. Because no one knows the real me. Everyone has their own person and then there's me. I don't have anyone. I'm alone. Everyday I wake up with the same feeling, living this boring life day for day until the day I die. I can't take it any longer. I feel so empty, yet I feel so much at once. I can't even describe what I'm feeling. Perhaps loneliness? I just want to be seen, too. To be honest, I never really cared about attention, because I wasn't worth looking at anyway. But it does hurt, knowing no one really cares about you. And that stings really bad. Never have been in a relationship, no one even looks in my direction. And even if they do, it's just out of pity. I don't care about what others think of me, but I still can't help but ask myself how my life would be if I was someone else. Someone better, more likeable. Guess we'll never know.