Dear jacob c,

if you pay attention, im on all of these sites.
they're supposed to make me feel better, but they never do.
deep down i wonder if you'll ever see this.
maybe when you're older, and we lost touch.
maybe when you're older, and we share a last name.
if we lost touch, please dont say so. ive been hurting for a while just at the fact that you leave me on read often. please dont say that its over.
i honestly dont think i can take this anymore- you know my story. almost "too cr*zy to be real." right? i just wish you wouldnt add on to it.
its cr*zy how im still holding on to certain words you said-

"i dont know why anyone would cheat on you, not to be corny"
"nah cuz, id let you take advantage of me"
"in other words, i love you too"
"i really hope this can work some day"
"i promise"

i dont know if i told you this, but even if we are young and dumb- when you said those three little words for the first time- i was hooked. that was it, you're the one. I've never had anyone tell me that they love me before, and even before you said it, i already discovered that i love you. i dont know its just- everything about you makes me so high(in a good way) from your smile to your laugh, god, i cant seem to shake it. its cr*zy how you're my first thought in the morning and my last before i go to sleep. i miss you, do you miss me too?

i dont care if i get punished, or if i get in trouble for talking to you- i dont. you're the thing that keeps me going, my hope is to see you again.

if you see this, reach out. now you know im kinda hurting, and i need you.

i miss you..