Dear Mama,

I try my best to keep it together for your sake, I thought I've healed myself enough. I thought I was above that bullshit but then you go say something that ends up triggering me and I am sitting here trying not to break down in front of everyone because you thought it was funny to make fun of my insecurities, about the things you know I'm clearly struggling with, I don't blame you though you don't understand such things, you never will, you were never taught to understand such things. I am sorry if i end up snapping at you because you unintentionally triggered me because you weren't taught that, that's not how you're supposed to show concern. concern isn't supposed to be expressed through pointing out flaws and nonchalance. It's okay I forgive you, you don't know better. I love you. I'll manage. I always do. That's what I've been taught!